Hello my lovely readers. It's been all of two months since I've posted anything on here, yet you all continue to read and support. I'm not sure what I did to deserve all of you, but I hope you know I appreciate you sticking around.
These past few months have been full of new experiences and stories, but have also made me realize a lot about life. I'm in a strange place right now self doubting myself and my goals and aspirations. At the beginning of the year all I wanted was to get good grades and do the best that I could do to help me get into medical school while still having fun from time to time. It was all going pretty well actually, until I took my finals and got my results.
Now that I'm home with a lot of time on my hands I've been reflecting Fall Quarter trying to figure out what I could have done better. I think I'm going to take this time to continue and do that and hopefully find strategies that will help me succeed this upcoming quarter. It might be something petty to complain about, but I've never wanted something more in my life then to be a doctor. Maybe I lost site of that goal along the way, but I know that it is still my aspiration in the end. So instead of sulking about my grades I'm going to try and continue to improve myself. I want to spend time doing the things I love like reading and writing poetry, and even blogging. Even though my schedule continues to be packed every quarter I want to make times for the things in life that make me happy. I want to try and find the balance of indulging for myself every once in a while, but still not losing sight of what I wish to achieve.
I've also learned that it's difficult to make time for people in your life, but you have to do it because those people are the ones that love and support you and bring meaning into life. Again, it's about balance, but it's difficult to do when it interrupts me from my goal. For someone who is very self motivated and driven, this quarter kind of crushed me in the way that it ended. All day today I've literally been in bed contemplating what's the point? I'm just not good enough to be a doctor. Maybe I should look into another future job or path. That's when I realized that I can't give up on my dream and myself so easily. I still have time to pick myself up and continue this journey. I can still push myself to be the best I know I can be, and if I do that and continue to strive for that, I'm sure the grades will come as a positive end product. Grades are essential for applying to medical school, but if I let myself only think about the marks I'm going to get on exams, then how am I ever going to let myself love the material I'm learning and just enjoy the process of college.
Thank you guys for sticking around and listening to my little self reflection. If you ever want to discuss these kind of topics, let me know in the comments below. I'm going to make it a goal to post 2 or 3 times a week. I don't know how accurate it will be, but I want to do it because this platform lets me be me and share myself for who I am to all of you. It's a good reminder and environment that I never want to lose.
I hope you all have a wonderful rest of your day.
Stay young, stay beautiful, and stay strong <3
~Shivani
These past few months have been full of new experiences and stories, but have also made me realize a lot about life. I'm in a strange place right now self doubting myself and my goals and aspirations. At the beginning of the year all I wanted was to get good grades and do the best that I could do to help me get into medical school while still having fun from time to time. It was all going pretty well actually, until I took my finals and got my results.
Now that I'm home with a lot of time on my hands I've been reflecting Fall Quarter trying to figure out what I could have done better. I think I'm going to take this time to continue and do that and hopefully find strategies that will help me succeed this upcoming quarter. It might be something petty to complain about, but I've never wanted something more in my life then to be a doctor. Maybe I lost site of that goal along the way, but I know that it is still my aspiration in the end. So instead of sulking about my grades I'm going to try and continue to improve myself. I want to spend time doing the things I love like reading and writing poetry, and even blogging. Even though my schedule continues to be packed every quarter I want to make times for the things in life that make me happy. I want to try and find the balance of indulging for myself every once in a while, but still not losing sight of what I wish to achieve.
I've also learned that it's difficult to make time for people in your life, but you have to do it because those people are the ones that love and support you and bring meaning into life. Again, it's about balance, but it's difficult to do when it interrupts me from my goal. For someone who is very self motivated and driven, this quarter kind of crushed me in the way that it ended. All day today I've literally been in bed contemplating what's the point? I'm just not good enough to be a doctor. Maybe I should look into another future job or path. That's when I realized that I can't give up on my dream and myself so easily. I still have time to pick myself up and continue this journey. I can still push myself to be the best I know I can be, and if I do that and continue to strive for that, I'm sure the grades will come as a positive end product. Grades are essential for applying to medical school, but if I let myself only think about the marks I'm going to get on exams, then how am I ever going to let myself love the material I'm learning and just enjoy the process of college.
Thank you guys for sticking around and listening to my little self reflection. If you ever want to discuss these kind of topics, let me know in the comments below. I'm going to make it a goal to post 2 or 3 times a week. I don't know how accurate it will be, but I want to do it because this platform lets me be me and share myself for who I am to all of you. It's a good reminder and environment that I never want to lose.
I hope you all have a wonderful rest of your day.
Stay young, stay beautiful, and stay strong <3
~Shivani